Hoping I made the right decision.....

So on to my next crazy decision............Ive mentioned my 17 year old sister being pregnant.......this is the same sister that lived with me from ages 12-15. She is now emancipated and for the last 6 months has been trying to find a place to live for her and her boyfriend. She is still a senior in highschool, and I am very proud of her to still be in school and doing well given the circumstances over the last couple years. As a teenager who is old enough to drop out, as well as emancipated, I am amazed at her determination to stay in school and graduate.

A few months ago she mentioned looking for a place to live, she had found a few places that fell through, and now was looking at going to a shelter. So my husband and I had several talks about her and her situation. As much as I wanted to help I knew #1 I was not in a financial state to take care of anyone else given what we were going through with all this fertility mess & #2 she was pregnant, about to bring a baby into this world which is what Greg and I have been working so hard for so long....

To my surprise it was Greg's idea to let her come stay with us. We had daily conversations about it for over a week because I just wasnt sure it was the best decision for us....one of my major concerns was that what if she doenst have anywhere to go when the baby came??  We had already struggled with that situation before with my sister Amber...and I felt horrible that we were not prepared to have a newborn in the home.  Then one day Greg just looked at me after I asked him the same questions over and over and said...."Stacy it will all work out, we will handle it when it happens, stop worrying about it" Of course Greg knows me better than anyone and I know he was thinking that I would be devastated if my sister went to a shelter and dropped out of school.  So at that point a decision was made to let her come stay with us.

It has been two weeks and so far so good. While I excited about having another niece I am also scared for my little sister. I know that everything will work out but I know she really has no clue what is about to happen, and the lifestyle changes that are about come. I mean I cant tell you Im 100% prepared for having a child. But I hope that Im able to help a little bit and right now the best thing I can do for my sister and my niece is allow her to stay with me and help her finish school. Again I think I would really regret allowing Infertility to make me a person I am not. Under any normal circumstance I would have not thought twice about this decision. So now we just figure it all out from here and await the arrival of Miss Kahmayah!

Due March 25, 2014